I can't.

I no longer know what to do with myself and my decisions and my tastes and my choices and my selections in careers and in dreams and in men and in life and ok mostly in men and careers because I have neither a career nor a man for the career I had begun to pursue is proving itself nearly impossible to attain and the man whom I have been continuously pursuing is proving himself nearly impossible to attain both for reasons which are entirely out of my hands and how can I change or alter or fix or ammend that which is entirely out of my hands? I can't.

And I don't want to fold my laundry.